whaddap blooggers!!!!!!!!!
so this week was the start of spring and it was MARVELLOUS. i love sweden in the spring, except now it's not really spring, the trees and grass havent gone green yet, but the flowers are starting to sprout :D

the last few days ive been sitting outside, enjoying the lovely sun and eating strawberries!!!!!! so yeah. not much to write, ill just post some pics of me and friends in the nice weather :)

okay. strike that. i dont have any pics ^_^ but i shall post some later!

das es all for now.
Little Miss Clueless.

my special needs bestest retarded friend, Tippan does a great imitation of Fred. for those of you know DONT know who Fred is, first watch this clip:


and if you DO know who Fred is, then watch this funny vid of tippans impression :)
btw- she is saying: "im going to prom with Patti. becos i like her earrings. they catch my attention. HEHEH"


hope you guys enjoyed that little thing :)
Little Miss Clueless.

here am i, sitting on my sofa, watching Melodifestivalen and chatting to Tippan. the only question i want to ask myself is. WHAT THE FUCK?! when did melodifestivalen suck so much?!?

firstly: they changed host. WHAAT? why?! kristian luuk was doing a good job all these years, so why!?
secondly: petra meade isnt funny, and she sucks as a hostess
thirdly: no entertainment whilst waiting for votes! ofc they couldnt top last year because of mr.Björn Gustafsson. but still, they could atleast put SOME effort in it..
forthly: basically ALL the people suck. and specifically, OPERA?! what were they thinking?! wow.
fifthly: they changed the style of voting and rules. it makes it soooooo much better, less confusing and stuff.
sixthly: WHY would they help darin with his comeback. WHY OH WHY.................................... usch.

so yeah. thats all i ork to write about melodifestivalen right now...

last sunday. was. the. best. day. ever. 3OH!3 was EPIC. best concert ever! and yes, katy perry was also good.. she was sick so i gotta give her some credit for it. so after the concert we also met katy perry's band since they were the only ones that came out. so yeah.

and now i dont feel like writing anymore since im tres tired. so heres my music list for today!
Freaxxx  -  Brokencyde
Fingerprints  -  Katy Perry
If U Seek Amy  -  Britney Spears
Tonight  -  The Jonas Brothers
Put Some Clothes On  -  Breathe Carolina
Forgive Me Nashville  -  The Chariot

 
me and tipps waiting for the train !


3OH!3 - sean and nate


3OH!3 on ze fists ! :)


Katy Perry!


das es all for now !
Little Miss Clueless

HEY BLOG HEEEEEEEY! :)
so, sports week. holidays. yes yes oh yay ! after a 2month non-stop of school, it is finally holdiay. thank god. being boring as my family usually is, we're staying at home ofc. but it'll be fine, got my week planned out. here's out it looks like:
- sleep
- meet friends
- sleep
- sleep
- eat
- eat
- sleep.
yes i will be catching up on many long-lost hours of sleep. it'll be worth it, i cant wait to start my sleep tonight. in fact i dont even know why im on here when i could be sleeping. hrrrmmm. oh well ^-^

if you might've noticed, i have a new layout, background and header. and i must say, i didnt do ANY of them myself, so KUDOS for  Tippan: layout, and Caroline: background and header!
Caroline: this gurl is off-da-hook yaow! her editing skillz are mad good and i mean, just look at my header! :D she be ½ asian too. GO US. (h5)
and Tippan: is,, just.. tippan. i cant say anything else about her.
right.

ANYVÄGEN. what i really wanted to say is that.,.... *drum roll*  TOMORROW IS THE 3OH!3/KATY PERRY CONCERT!!! omg omg omg omg! :D im tho thuper duper excited. it's gonna be AWESOME!! im so excited i cant contain myselff!
so tomorrow after church, tippan is coming over here and we're getting ready, then we're going into town to cue. then its CONCERT TIME. then sleepover time!
"im so excited, and i just can't hide it. im about to loose control and i just cant hide it!"
ah this fits so perfectly into this concept. !

well thats all for now. OH WAIT. my music list! thats right. well here it is for today:
Kids  -  MGMT
White Horse  -  Taylor Swift
All The Small Things  -  Blink 182
Get It Up  -  Mindless Self Indulgence
10 Miles Wide  -  Escape The Fate

kudos for reading all of this you guys :)
over. and. out.
Little Miss Clueless.

SO. IN 15 DAYS, THE BEST CONCERT WILL TAKE PLACE. THE EPICNESS, THE WOWNESS, THE ULTRA SEXNESS. THE OOOOOHHMAGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHNESS.
it's ....

3OH!3 BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAABY!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
:D  me and my special needs best friend Tippan are going to go see them next next sunday at Nalen, here in stockholm. AND. WE. ARE. SO. EXCITED. WE. ARE. JIZZING. SO. MUCHOS! its thooo truee!

they are an amahzing band with fabtastic music, and they happen to be one of my fav bands. the only annoying thing is that it's not really THEIR concert - it's Katy Perry's. they're the opening band (gutted) but it is STILL worth to go. even though tippan and i dont really like her, i think we might just stay for the fun of it, or just to hear her sing hot n cold or i kissed a girl yer dig? :)

       
i edited this picture :D                                        3OH!3 hand sign

so me and tips are gonna be dancing our asses off, singing our lungs out and enjoying ourselves majorllllyyyyyy.

unfortuneatly.... another amahzing band is having a CONCERT tomorw, and they are called Metro Station. i reeeeaally wanna go but i cant becos i am going to 3OH!3 and stuffies :(   however i do have a friend going who managed to get last-minute tickets, idk how she did it, but she did :O so i hope she has a fer sure wicked tajm and enjoys herself ^-^


SONG LIST:
LOVE STORY  -  TAYLOR SWIFT <3 <3
Beating Hearts Baby  -  Head Automatica
Look What You've Done  -  Jet
Poppin Champagne  -  All Time Low
Candyland Wedding  -  Kill Paradise

thats all for now peeps, and in the wise wise cute words of taylor swift,
never a clean break, no one here to save me.
Little Miss Clueless.

HELLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO blog world. here be i again. after a couple of days? so ive recieved some criticism from a person, not mentioning any names *cough TIPPAN cough* for not updating this blog of mine. so here it goes. just for tipps.

im just gonna rant a little on about breakups.
so the 'nice' breakups usually are when you and the guy and still be good-ish friends after and still talk you know? weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeelll, i have this friend, who recently broke up with her boyfriend (so is also a friend of mine) and what can i say. its not exactly a clean-cut. and the worst thing is that he's making it so awkward for all of us who used to hang out with him, and blaming my friend for all this crap that's just tres retarded. in general he's being VERY awkward/distant/emo and we all just want him back as a friend, but like that's ever going to happen after how he decides to act. and i know, it's not exactly my problem, but she's my best friend, what's her problem is mine, and i hate seeing her all sad so i have to do something? i guess this is kinda being biast in a way, since im friends with the guy as well. but what kind of a friend disses their other friends just because they hang out with that one person you just broke up with. i dont know if you understand this whole paragraph, but its just so annoying when it affects a lot of people rather than just the normal two.

enought about that.

so here's just a video which i think is AMAZHZING. this guy is tres good at singing. KUDOS FOR CAROLINE FOR SHOWING ME THIS! :D



today's music list:
La La Land  -  Demi Lovato
Redlight District  -  Porcelain And The Tramps
Smother Me  -  The Used
Blue Steel  -  Brokencyde
PS I Love You  -  The All-American Rejects

ja ja, das es all for today. i shall write something later! :)
in the words of Demi Lovato:   i wont change anything in my life, im staying myself tonight
Little Miss Clueless.

so here i am. back writing blogs after a long period of nothingness.
the time period wasnt intentional, i just kept on procrastinating and pushing it .. oh well. here i am now! :D

so in the last month or so a lot has happened. so ima just make a straight up list.

- mom's still in korea, however she's coming back on sat! :)
- got the Twilight Series for xmas, fell inlove with it. er, wait, actually im overly obsessed with it
- went "scene" for a while with Cissi, then changed back again, and now i sometimes still do my hair in that way
- changed my music style a bit, now much more screamo/scene/rock is on my playlists
- gramps passed away fri 16/1-09 <3
- turned sweet 16
- GOT A NEW PHONE!!!!! :D
- have updated mine and tippan's youtube channel with A LOT more videos.

okay so much more has happened which i cant be arsed to write about at the moment- so stay in touch for more!
right, im going to say this once, and only once. i somenly promise to write more blog entries in the year 2009. retarded, critical, analytical, saddening, funny- whatever moments and/or blog topics. i swear to write more.
there, i did it.

so its quite late. im tired seeing as in the past 2 weeks ive barely gotten any sleep, so i shall go in just a minute.
BUT FIRST. something new which i shall add to every blog now- a song list of awethome songs i love/newbies/classics/old lovers/retarded etc. just a couple each entry and maybe you can see if you like them ! :)

Something  -  Escape The Fate
Get Back  -  Demi Lovato
Don't Forget:Lock The Door  -  Breathe Carolina
Neatfreak47  -  3OH!3
Smother Me  -  The Used
Remember When  -  There For Tomorrow
Gives You Hell  -  The All American Rejects
Mmmbop  -  Hanson

so there was today's music list, a mix of different genres, time periods and bands. enjoy it and i'll leave you with a video me and a friend did to Selena Gomez's song, Tell Me Something I Don't Know from the movie, "Another Cinderella Story"



that's all from me now.
in the words of Escape The Fate;
"Like the brightest star you shine through."
Little Miss Clueless.

it has started snowing.

personally this means horrible, cold, long, dark winters for me. but this year the snow came with a different approach, both good and bad.
when the darkness starts to surround you (usually about late october) in this country, a lot of people started getting sick, depressed and a bunch of different things, so its important to find something that will brighten this period up. for some people thats tough, and for others its easy. this year for me its been a mix of both. okay, so more of the easy than hard, but something hit me hard in the face about 2 weeks ago. for sometime a really close friend of mine's dad hasnt been doing so well, and two weeks ago tomorw this friend of mine did something which i think is very brave. she texted me that he had passed away during the night. ofc i felt a pain in my heart, seeing as i have known their family for the whole 6, soon 7 years that ive been here in sweden, a true friend of mine. i know it's tough for her and her family, but sweetie you know im always here for you whenever you need me, and i love you tons <3
this is something that has been with me, and the one thing that made the darkness that much more cruel.
r.i.p kenneth <3
another thing that i have found out recently is that my grandfather hasnt been doing well either, which is a pain for my mom seeing as my grandmother is also very sick. so this means my mom and my aunt will be going back to korea again, for the 2nd time this year, and the 4th time since 2007. it troubles me as i dont like seeing my mom in this position, taking care of both of her sick parents, my grandparents. if we have to face the facts, everyone knows that we get old, and will eventually pass away, but you dont like to think about it when its about close friends and family members. and since my mom is going to be going to korea soon, it means she will miss out on the first couple weeks of advant. a family tradition in our house. i know its selfish of me for wanting her to be here seeing as she needs to be with my grandparents, but still. we have always been together during the advant weeks, decorating the house with christmas decorations, buying our xmas tree and decorating it. we wont even be doing that this year as we are going back to denmark for christmas since we have done that for a couple of years.

the good things that the darkness and snow has brought is the joy with friends. i never really used to like the snow seeing as its cold and wet. but this year i have officially changed part of my opinion. okay, its still COLD and wet, and bleh, but acting like you are 5 again can bring tons of fun back into ones life. making snow-angels, having snowball fights, drinking hot choc, eating xmas snacks and spending quality time with all those people i love, catching snowflakes on my tounge - these things make me enjoy this season even more. even though everyone says they hate being in school, face it, you love it deep down becos school allows you to do these things with friends everyday of the school week.

as christmas is coming up, i have decided i only REALLY want one thing this year: a trip in the summer to see my bestest friend Harri in england, as i havent seen her in 1½ years. but since i wont be in this country this year for christmas and as a bunch of friends arent even going to be in this continant, there's a couple more things i want, which i know i cant get until school starts again. take a guess. and especially one thing i want i cant have. <3. but as soon as i come back im expecting to meet up with all those crazy people whom i love.

so my advice to you for some christmas cheering up is:
- listen to xmas music, its the time, and you know it makes you happy.
- spend all the time you can with your friends and loved ones.
- start eating those yummy xmas snacks.
- make your xmas wish lists!

this is all from me now. have a happy xmas season!
Little Miss Clueless.


me and 3 friends enjoying the many layers of snow at school.

watch this and be amazed :)
i love my tippppan. <3



Little Miss Clueless.

i thought you guys deserved to hear the story about how TWLOHA started. so here it is.

"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."

I would rather write her a song, because songs don't wait to resolve, and because songs mean so much to her. Stories wait for endings, but songs are brave things bold enough to sing when all they know is darkness. These words, like most words, will be written next to midnight, between hurricane and harbor, as both claim to save her.

Renee is 19. When I meet her, cocaine is fresh in her system. She hasn't slept in 36 hours and she won't for another 24. It is a familiar blur of coke, pot, pills and alcohol. She has agreed to meet us, to listen and to let us pray. We ask Renee to come with us, to leave this broken night. She says she'll go to rehab tomorrow, but she isn't ready now. It is too great a change. We pray and say goodbye and it is hard to leave without her.

She has known such great pain; haunted dreams as a child, the near-constant presence of evil ever since. She has felt the touch of awful naked men, battled depression and addiction, and attempted suicide. Her arms remember razor blades, fifty scars that speak of self-inflicted wounds. Six hours after I meet her, she is feeling trapped, two groups of "friends" offering opposite ideas. Everyone is asleep. The sun is rising. She drinks long from a bottle of liquor, takes a razor blade from the table and locks herself in the bathroom. She cuts herself, using the blade to write "FUCK UP" large across her left forearm.

The nurse at the treatment center finds the wound several hours later. The center has no detox, names her too great a risk, and does not accept her. For the next five days, she is ours to love. We become her hospital and the possibility of healing fills our living room with life. It is unspoken and there are only a few of us, but we will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to meet her needs, to write love on her arms.

I've never walked this road, but I decide that if we're going to run a five-day rehab, it is going to be the coolest in the country. It is going to be rock and roll. We start with the basics; lots of fun, too much Starbucks and way too many cigarettes.

Sunday night is church and many gather after the service to pray for Renee, this her last night before entering rehab. Some are strangers but all are friends tonight. The prayers move from broken to bold, all encouraging. We're talking to God but I think as much, we're talking to her, telling her she's loved, saying she does not go alone. One among us knows her best. Ryan sits in the corner strumming an acoustic guitar, singing songs she's inspired.

After church our house fills with friends, there for a few more moments before goodbye. Everyone has some gift for her, some note or hug or piece of encouragement. She pulls me aside and tells me she would like to give me something. I smile surprised, wondering what it could be. We walk through the crowded living room, to the garage and her stuff.

She hands me her last razor blade, tells me it is the one she used to cut her arm and her last lines of cocaine five nights before. She's had it with her ever since, shares that tonight will be the hardest night and she shouldn't have it. I hold it carefully, thank her and know instantly that this moment, this gift, will stay with me. It hits me to wonder if this great feeling is what Christ knows when we surrender our broken hearts, when we trade death for life.

As we arrive at the treatment center, she finishes: "The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."

We often ask God to show up. We pray prayers of rescue. Perhaps God would ask us to be that rescue, to be His body, to move for things that matter. He is not invisible when we come alive. I might be simple but more and more, I believe God works in love, speaks in love, is revealed in our love. I have seen that this week and honestly, it has been simple: Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess, give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true.

We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.

I have learned so much in one week with one brave girl. She is alive now, in the patience and safety of rehab, covered in marks of madness but choosing to believe that God makes things new, that He meant hope and healing in the stars.

She would ask you to remember.


that's the story. and shut up to all you haters, and yes i know it's depressing, but it's a heart-grabbing story. and no i have not gone emo on you. so take a chill pill.
Little Miss Clueless.

 
   

February 13th.
November 13th.
love is the movement.

so i bet you're all wondering what this means. and now im quoting off of the fcb group. but its a fabtastic thing i think theyre doing, and they help save tons of lives.

"On November 13 write LOVE on your arm in big letters. Be creative spread the word. This is for all the survivors and all the innocent. All of the people who are hurting and who think that suicide is the only way they can turn."

"The truth is that according to the World Health Organization, depression is one of the leading causes of disability, with approximately 121 million people suffering with depression worldwide. The National Institute of Mental Health states that approximately 18 million people suffer from depression in America alone. Depression does not discriminate across age, race, gender, or class. Among teenagers it is estimated that 20 percent will suffer from depression at some point by the time they reach adulthood. There are also as many as 8.3 percent of teens suffering from depression for at least a year at a time, compared to 5.3 percent of the general population. Insprired by the work of TWLOHA (To Write Love On Her Arms), an organization created to spread awareness for teen depression, self-injury, and suicide, we are coming together to make sure the whole world knows. During the time of year that suicide rates are at their highest, we chose February 13, the day before Valentine's Day, as our opportunity to start showing people how much they are loved. We will physically write the word LOVE on our arms (with a sharpie, or whatever other ink suits you best). If someone asks you what it’s for, tell them about TWLOHA. Tell them they are loved, that they are important. And ask if you can write LOVE on their arm as a symbol of that. Don't be afraid to reach out to those who need love, those who you often walk right by every day. They need our care."

okay, i know this sounds WAY depressing and all emo and crap, but its a good cause. so im expecting all of you to write LOVE on your arms tomorw, and if you do, comment me about it :) TWLOHA also have really cute clothes etc, and i am a proud owner of a cute little black pin.

www.TWLOHA.com
check out the site and see how it all started!

so thats all for now. check out the site, write LOVE on your arm tomorw, and enjoy your day!
Stop the bleeding. Rescue is possible.
Little Miss Clueless.

       

now i will start this interesting blogg off in english,, and i will switch a tres awesome language soon. yes, in a matter of fact i will switch RIGHT now to ................ drum roll please........................

DEUTSCH!

Das also bin ich spreche Deutsch. cool oder? jaa, Es ist sehr cool! Ich mag Deutsch sprechen von Zeit zu Zeit, wenn es mir albern oder seltsam, und wenn Sie nicht verstehen, HAHA. übersetzen oder etwas! ^^

HRM, was soll ich reden? Ich weiß nicht, vielleicht etwas über die Wahlen. ja ich reden über die Wahlen!! :D wie wir alle wissen Amerika ist die Auswahl ihrer nächsten Präsidenten, und auch uns Europäer sind gefangen in allen die Aufregung. albern uns! Ich meine, es ist nicht wie wir gegen solche Störungen empfindlich sein?! okay, vielleicht nur ein bisschen etwas, aber immer noch! so hoffentlich Obama gewählt wird, weil wir nicht wollen, dass Bush wieder ein anderes, nicht wahr?! denn das ist im Grunde, was McCain ist, die neue Bush. usch. also ich weiß nicht, warum ich sagen, dass WIR die ganze Zeit, denn ich bin nicht amerikanischer und können an der Abstimmung nicht teil, aber es kommt nur natürliche ... Okay, genug über die Wahlen, es macht mich müde und blää.

NICHT ICH SPRECHE GUT DEUTSCH?!?

Ich habe gelernt durch die sehr besten, meine Geliebte Tess <3 und ich habe NICHT betrügen und mit einem Übersetzer! Ich bin qualifizierte wie die YAOOWW!! :D so das ist alles für heute. Kommentare in Deutsch über meine schönen Blog! nur Deutsch!!

and in the words of my fellow classmate and Obama supporter,, GOBAMA!
Little Miss Clueless. or should i rather say,, Kleine Frau Ratlos.
(HAAH EWWW its so ugly in german XD.)


GEHEN DEUTSCHLAND!

HIYAA peoples :)

so ima try something different now. instead of writing a blogg ima post up some pics. and i want you to comment on what you think about them. :D first words that come to your head, WRITE IT DOWN.

but firstly, one word: camels.




dont forget to comment on the pics ;)

over and out.
Little Miss Clueless.

"im more than a bird, im more than a plane. im more than some pretty face beside a train. its not easy, to be me."
im hoping that quote fits into the subject of this blogg. prolly wont, but its pwetty and i like it :)

so lately i havent really been posting that interesting bloggs, so im hoping this one spurrs all your attention!

todays subject is: makeup
i have nothing against it, as its one of my best friends seeing as i cant seem to leave the house without it. strike that. i can, sometimes.
anyways, that was besides the point. so like i said, i have nothing against it, and sure it can make some people prettier in a way, and some people look great without it. there are many positive and negative things about makeup which can be very debatable in many ways. the only thing that bothers me a lot is what is too much and can people pull it off?!

personally i dont wear that much makeup, just your simple eye things and some foundation, but i dont understand how some girls can just layer and layer and layer and layer on the foundation. however its okay if that person has bad skin, but if they dont and they just layer (like fjortisar) it just makes me think to myself, do they really like how they look like? or do they have bad self-confidence so they need to throw on tons of makeup to feel better? so just ask yourself this question: what's underneath it all?
right, so it may seem like some deep physcological question, but it isnt really. do you wear makeup to hide something? or what?

whatevs. its your own personal opinion, and im just trying to figure something out for myself. so im not wearing any makeup today (seeing as i was at home all day. ^^) which is why i started thinking about this. so dont think of me as superficial, im quite the opposite. im complex. ahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. excuse me while i lawl some more. hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha. okay. done.

so now i cant remember what to write seeing as ive had big gaps inbetween my writing :)
that's all for now!

btw, check this out. http://www.youtube.com/user/tippatpanti
it'll make you go crazeyyy =D

Little Miss Clueless.